Please suspend any donations. Last Friday after two days of tests, scans, bone-marrow extraction and so on, our Doctor came in the evening to say the cancer had badly metastsized…to bone marrow, liver, right lung, kidney and small bowel. Nothing to be done except palliative care and that I had at most two weeks to live. So that’s it. I can’t see I shall ever get back here. Emails will reach Val firstname.lastname@example.org who obviously will pass along to me whatever she can. Bits of it all have been fun and it’s been a decent run.
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It is Lisa’s birthday today: good company. Medical events are moving faster. A few days ago I signed my non-resuscitation documents, and then the non-hospice request. Tomorrow morning is a full blood test, followed by an echo scan: then a full MRI scan, ending with blood-marrow extraction.
(February 17, 1937 – December 31, 2016)
San Francisco Chronicle obituary .
It has been a bad year, but I won’t haunt Christmas. What space of this I can so rarely now find energy sufficient to open, let alone use, exists purely because a few generous friends (I thank particularly Jeremy Noel-Tod and Ian Heames) click the donate button. I’m grateful to them, and to the actual analogue friends in town…. Sam, Sara, Ace and Guthrie; Daniel, Jenny and Bramble; Franco and his restaurant for… their constant help and presence. Otherwise I have been able only to see immediate family and representatives of most medical specialities, over more than a year.
I’ve no strength to send out a card: but those who wish to will find this. Enjoy these days. Love from us, Val and Tom
I can do no more than report with sadness (the news is second/third hand a short while ago) that Ray DiPalma was found dead after being missed from his teaching. I know nothing but that. I owe Ray a lot… he was responsible for my first job at Bowling Green S.U. and published me in his DOONES press magazine and books. His own work, from poetry through translations on to his witty and delicate rubber-stamp books and other graphic work was ever interesting, awake, and reflective of his wide-ranging reading and interests. I have no strength to write more.
Death later confirmed by Merrill Gilfillan.
I took this photo of Ray in Bowling Green, Ohio, 1972.
A sunny morning has me thinking of Anne-Marie. Bon Anniversaire!
Anne-Marie Albiach. August 9th.1937 – November 4th.2012
….would have been Peter Gilpin’s birthday: well, it still is. Thinking of you both this morning Gayle.
Finally done. Despite last minute (or early morning) blips and hold-ups) not medical, but bureaucratic and systemic) the surgeon did great work and demonstrated exactly why she’s held in such high regard. My thanks to her, to the two anaestheists and to the other theatre staff. I heard six different European languages used between nursing staff in the recovery ward. Home now I see the unusual sunlight of the past week has brought on my “Apache” Chilli. Val and I thank you for all the messages. I’ll try to get through the e-accumulation after the weekend perhaps.
A dawn phonecall informs us that the “urgent” surgery already cancelled twice in theatre since October will, now that surgeons and anaesthetists have conferred, be tried again at 8.30 a.m. on Wednesday, 20th. A lot to be done in the next couple of days so I shall probably be offline for some time (both here, and for email) from tomorrow.
Jim Pennington was kind enough to send me this photo of Gregory Corso and piero heliczer in Paris, 1960. They are exactly how I remember meeting them. A jolt.
photo © Harriet Crowder
It was a (very) rare sunny day. The bus to the most distant hospital I have to get to goes from a stop the furthest away. On the way home I got halfway down George Street and then had to sit. Luckily there’s an iron bench and I was able to both rest and observe the evening street traffic
Chain Of Title, by David Dayen The New Press
Gangster Warlords, by Ioan Grillo Bloomsbury
Amberianum, by Charles Bernstein… 66 copies made by No Press, Alberta, Canada.
Against Value In The Arts And Education, edited by Sam Ladkin, Robert McKay and Emile Bojesen Rowman
Near Miss Hit Me, by Buck Downs information from 18113 Burke Street,SE, DC 20003
Hieronymous Bosch, The Complete Works, by Stefan Fischer Taschen
No Art; Poems, by Ben Lerner Granta
Pitch Of Poetry, by Charles Bernstein University of Chicago
You Want It When?, by Buck Downs. information from 18113 Burke Street,SE, DC 20003
Short Course, by Ted Greenwald and Charles Bernstein Chax
Langue De Coton, by Michèle Cohen and Jean-François Goyet General information
Culebra, by Roberto Harrison Green Lantern
Bicycle, by Roberto Harrison Noemi Press
Le Cahier du Refuge number 250 CIPM Marseille
Sonnets (another 10) published by Face Press, Hoxton April 2016
Sonnets books 1 to 10 Printed in Cambridge, May 2016
Information about both Sonnets books should be gleaned from Ian Heames
A few moments ago Ken Lansdowne died. He was my oldest friend and, with his wife Pat, family forever. Born in Shoreditch, East London (well before it was polluted by “artists”) on Christmas day 1938; he died this morning in Deal, Kent. The stories are too many and, finally, nobody’s fucking business. This was the last time I saw Ken, he came to visit shortly before I went into hospital, almost two years ago. After that, neither of us could travel. A diamond. With Teddy yesterday, and Ken today, this June is working on being memorable.
…. our dear and old friend Ted Greenwald. Love and condolences to Joan and Abby.
The worst week for a long time. This is not the last time I saw Teddy; but it was the last time we sat across a table alone.
Read his books.
August 30, 1939, New York City –– June 16th, 2016, San Francisco.
Bill reading in London, 2007
A flicker of late night memories through almost 50 years. Bill always calm. warm, generous with time, information, gossip and in light. New York City, Bolinas, San Francisco, London. Mentally and physically courageous, too. Our deepest sympathy to Connie; to all Bill’s family.
Behind The Façade: An Architect At Large John Wells-Thorpe Book Guild Publishing
Edge Of Irony Marjorie Perloff University of Chicago Press
Everydata Johnson and Gluck Bibliomotion
A Burglar’s Guide To The City Geoff Manaugh Farrar Strauss and Giroux
La Finitude des corps simples Claude Royet Journoud P.O.L
oyster finitude Dominique Fourcade hors commerce
Modern Toss IX Jon Link and Mick Bunnage Modern Toss